It WAS.........

...(for me)...all i had online really. the Artist there inspired me to do/make my with there music. Its was those peoples supportive words when I was down that helped me stay at music and life. I put more time in the Anubes anyone, even Nigel. I tried to give ALL myself there, NOT just the good-fun-easy stuff, all the hard stuff also. I supported everyone there. The place gave back to me SO much..I had come to like my music and myself, my views, ect. Most just lost a forum, I lost more than you will ever know, things i wont ever give again.
Am I blaming anyone? ON! never did..never will.
All i know is i dont want to do music now, i dont want to build friendships, im NOT what i was built-up to be there now.
I welcomed in everyone that came there, and tried to make them feel apart of the place.
I did more than anyone, I lost more than anyone, I have the RIGHT to state it even you dont like me doing so.
What did (I) get from it??? DONT DO THAT AGAIN pretty much.
Ya know, i could have just shot my dog and felt about the same.
Nigel thinks I blame the Anubes or the internet for letting me down.
I blame myself for allowing myself to care about the Anubes that much.
I blame myself for showing people im human, i get mad, i get down, sad, and thinking they would accept that as a good thing.
RESPECT??? You DO know that comes in TWO flavors RIGHT???
RESPECT can be give'n in TWO ways!
I do NOT demand it, nor do i give it out alot.
If you Demand Respect, you will never get any.

Nah...dont going thinking im writing this for YOU or ABOUT YOU, im writing it to get it out of ME! Its not TO: "The Anubes"..."MIX" , "THE WORLD"....

At the Anubes i would do this alot...Then people would read INTO my words what they wanted to "think" i was saying and to who i was saying it to. There responces were most times very helpful and sometime suprising to me. I thought that to be a gift from the place really. Sometimes people not understanding but try'n to help, makes the thought or point un-important, or not such a prob.

If there was a Reopening, would I join...HELL NO! The place was to great for me, helped me in so many ways, that i would not chance that again. My heart cant take these feeling again. Dissapointed, HELL YES!

I could still shoot my dog i guess?? might as well KILL everything, No?

THOSE words are out of RESPECT!......You figg out for what/who/why...

LATER!
DACE>

Hey Dace, you got my Respect man! You are a damn fine musician, and more important, a bloody good friend! The Anubes brought us together (thanks Nigel) It's a shame it's gone, but the people, and friendships still remain.
Oh yeah, please don't shoot your dog. If you gotta shoot something go for a politician! They will only pretend to be your friend around election time, whereas a dog will be your friend whatever!!

Later

Steve:)

You tell it like it is Bro. From your heart, and your head.
If that doesn't earn respect, nothing does.

I'm sad it's gone too. This place has just a pale flicker of a heartbeat.

But for me it's really all about the people. And all the people that were
there are still around. Still alive.

Things change, people change, but heart and soul remain.

Your music has value to me. And meaning. And soul.

Nothing changes that.


Z

Dace, I hear you more than you realize. Save for a few and a very few friends, I've felt very ignored for quite sometime and its my own fault. I am way too bashful to self promote because I feel if one asks, they will get, but will it be honest? I'd rather have one person "find" my music and say they liked it.
Tired of going to radio shows and not get played while I watch others join chat and get played within minutes of logging in. Do I feel taken for granted...oh yeah!
You and I could sit down with a beer and doob and fill a book with what we've been thru. Are we too
sensitive, maybe, but how can one be a caring person without being sensitive.

Rick

Feelings need to be stated somewhere, somehow, in songs, writings, ect.

Yes, guys the "people" of the Anubes are still around, BUT, Like with the old mix going down, the people shattered in all directions. Same with the Anubes. The PLACE was the thing. I keep hearing that from everyone and they need to understand and they WILL in time that we lost a "Place" to be what would could not anywhere eles.

Same vibe, posting, happening here???NO it cant, on MIX, nope cant....

I find it so odd that people were coming there that had been away awhile, things were better there when this happened than they had EVER been. ANYWAY!

LOOK....I have it in my mind it was somethig Nigel wanted and needed. I wont think of it any other way. Its the only way i will accept it. Whatever his reason matters little. But things were very good there at the shut-down-point.

It is NOTHING NEW IN MY LIFE! 45 years of finding something great just to see it go away. Thats life, and it sucks in that way.

If a person is that private, they should be private. The mistake Nigel made was starting it. I look back at ALOT of thig i have done in life and say, I should not have even done that to start with. Nigel makes mistakes like ALL of us. Thats the only one i see he made with the Anubes. Its NOT him at all...To private for that kind of thing.

MY mistake was joining because i never was a group type person. When Nigel asked me there i said that to myself, nah, thats not me. I ended going there anyway. Nothing wrong with making mistakes as long as you can SEE them and say you did.

Nigel a good dude...He just needs to be NIGEL.. Now maybe he can better.

The more lost, the more gained!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Gained a TON......It will show soon.
DACE>

Dace

Anubes was a place full of great people.

Some moved on.

The vibe continued.

A moment in time as someone said.

I understand how you feel you gave your soul and more to the site the same with Mixposure (original) too see the things we love just go is hard to take.hard to understand.

But Nigel had to make a really difficult decision:

i feel the same as you in many ways - also though I do feel a certain amount of guilt for not being there over the past months,what was once like second home to me I neglected.

Time will not stand still.

Sly

Yep, you all speak true.

Sometimes it seems like the original mix was a life raft for a good many of us,
and each time a site goes down and we move on, we lose some good people.

I see how Dace considers "the site of Anubes" that way. That's true.
When I talk about "the site" I mean just the content mostly. But in a way
"the site" IS the people, and we never move forward with the same people.

I miss Nigel. He had good things to say, and great music.
He was always his own harshest critic.

I miss so many friends that have let go of the raft and gone under.

But I will carry on. Even if it's just me talking to myself.

I harbor no ill will toward any that left.
I won't judge the merits of their reasons.

Life happens.

Carry on my friends.
When you have time, stop by and say hi.

Love y'all.

Z

Nice toughts guys.

DACE>